The Past The Love The Memory

Tuesday, May 14, 2013 @ 11:28 PM

This is exactly why im afraid to open myself up to the girl I like. To expose my vulnerabilities. Because every man is for himself. No one is gonna care for how you feel at the end of the day. When you start to be your true self, people will start to dislike some traits of yours and you try to change for them, only to find out what you have done is just not enough.

I have to learn to love myself for who I am, protect myself from people who will hurt me. And trust only myself.

I have opened so much of myself to you, and each time you don't seems to cherish it. This will be the last time. Maybe we are just not suitable for each other.

Im sorry, you have lost the trust I gave you.


Friday, October 05, 2012 @ 8:56 PM


A master asked his disciples:
‘Why do we shout in anger? Why do people shout at each other when they are upset?’
the disciples thought for a while, and one of them said
‘Because we lose our calm, we shout for that.’
‘But, why to shout when the other person is just next to you? ‘Isn’t it possible to speak to him or her with a soft voice? Why do you shout at a person when you’re angry?’
The disciples gave him some other answers but none satisfied the master.
Finally he explained:
‘When two people are angry at each other, their hearts distance a lot. To cover that distance they must shout to be able to hear each other. The angrier they are, the stronger they will have to shout to hear each other through that great distance.’
Then the master asked:
‘What happens when two people fall in love? They don’t shout at each other but talk softly, why? Because their hearts are very close. The distance between them is very small…’
And he concluded:
‘When they love each other even more, what happens?
‘They do not speak, only whisper and they get even closer to each other in their love.
‘Finally they even need not whisper, they only look at each other and that’s all. That is how close two people are when they love each other.’


Sunday, May 27, 2012 @ 3:17 PM

I can finally say that im out of this emotional rut that has been plaguing me since last year. At the cost of my morals, reputation and conscience. Because I'm a monster now. in order to eradicate the monster which have been haunting me since forever.


Saturday, April 14, 2012 @ 5:34 PM



Monday, April 02, 2012 @ 11:17 PM

I'm feeling really miserable, I'm about to cry. The heartache is killing me. Maybe this' a withdrawal symptom? I'm in a mess. I can't control my emotions anymore. I need a doctor.


Sunday, February 05, 2012 @ 9:23 PM

The only way to get over you is to hate you through and through, to remember every bad points of you. Because love and hatred are only separated by a fine line.

There's nothing to hold on to anymore, even memories hurt so bad when I think about you.

I'm so broken, so numb of my surroundings. I'm not myself anymore.


@ 9:17 PM

I'm still broken. I'm still in self denial. I'm afraid. I'm fragile. I can't control my emotions. I'm a wreck.


Monday, January 02, 2012 @ 1:30 PM

Don't run away
And it's hard to love again
When the only way its been
When the only love you know, just walked away
If it's something that you want, darling you don't have to run
You dont have to go

Just stay with me
Baby stay with me



Wednesday, November 02, 2011 @ 4:50 PM

My last day of civilian life like what they say, is exceptionally sian. I can feel all the mixed feelings crushing down on me. A large part of it comes from her. Can say that a simple take care message from her crumbled me down pretty badly, however not in a bad way. I guess it's in an enlightening way. Because I realised that I still do love her. In fact I still love every one of my exes. Just that that love is a different kind, a non romantic, a wish you all the best that I can never give you love.

Would like to elaborate more on the current status, I care so much for her and likewise she does too. It's just that whatever good that can happen has already happened and it has come to a closure. you just wish things between us can be as good as it can be right now. And show concern for each other is the best way. Perhaps like I felt for my first love, I will always love pinxian for as long as I can.

Life right now is actually quite depressing but I can say I'm doing quite well, coping with the lemons life is giving me.

Army pls be good to me!


Saturday, October 22, 2011 @ 2:13 AM

“I’m so mad at you. I’m really mad at you for what you did. But I’m mad at myself too. Because I should not have jumped out of that car - I should have fought for you. Because you fight for your soul mates.”
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