My last day of civilian life like what they say, is exceptionally sian. I can feel all the mixed feelings crushing down on me. A large part of it comes from her. Can say that a simple take care message from her crumbled me down pretty badly, however not in a bad way. I guess it's in an enlightening way. Because I realised that I still do love her. In fact I still love every one of my exes. Just that that love is a different kind, a non romantic, a wish you all the best that I can never give you love.

Would like to elaborate more on the current status, I care so much for her and likewise she does too. It's just that whatever good that can happen has already happened and it has come to a closure. you just wish things between us can be as good as it can be right now. And show concern for each other is the best way. Perhaps like I felt for my first love, I will always love pinxian for as long as I can.

Life right now is actually quite depressing but I can say I'm doing quite well, coping with the lemons life is giving me.

Army pls be good to me!