I cried today, memories of you flooded my mind. I couldnt take it, I broke down. I questioned myself, would you come back. I knew the answer but i couldn't accept it. My heart is bleeding, I wish I was stronger. I have grown to love carefully and trust less. Life still goes on but everyday I feel as if a part of me is dead and devouring my mind slowly. And funny thing is I'm growing numb to it. I blame myself, I wallow in self pity. I can't help it cos I really despise myself so much. Worst time of my life.