some time when you say things, i wonder if you had put my feelings into consideration, cos in my opinion your words are just fucking selfish? i dont wish to know already, and sometimes i dont even want to bother anymore.

if you're not happy then jolly well let me know straight in the face so maybe i can fuck off and take my business elsewhere to others who appreciate and reciprocate my affection. sometimes i really think that this thing we have is all about you, like how happy/stressed up you are, we'll have to make it up for it. when is it about me, about how i feel and how i want things to happen without asking for your opinion. you're seriously so fucked up. i dont know what to say about you anymore.

one day, courage to withstand the pain will come.

i've been numb for too long, to all these, as though there's some housefly flying around me and i wont even bother to do anything, just doing my own shiat.