its sad for a love to be lack in trust, lack in assurance, lack in sweet nothings.

somehow being in a r/s seems so tiring for me. some days i feel happy to have you with me, and some days i feel so difficult to communicate with you. yes i find it really difficult to communicate with you. its not like we quarrel all the time or what, i feel that you're not letting me into your thoughts. and im scared to share my thoughts with you because of that.

perhaps both of us need time to sort it out but we dont want to lose each other and we get caught in this struggle to find out what we can do for each other. i feel really awkward when there's silence in our conversation and when i dont know what to type in a text conversation.

all i hope is that our r/s will improve and you will accept me as your other half. really miss those times when we had nothing to worry about.

fucking moodswings.