I hate it that I'm always so pessimistic, always lack of confidence. I need to be more like Leo.
I can't read your mind, p. :( I miss you already Ughhhh. But I hate myself at how lousy a lover, a bro I am. Im so scared of getting into a relationship cos Im really afraid I become the old me again. I hate the old me, I don't want to lose my brothers again, i don't want to be possessive and be lack of discipline and not know my limits. Im so scared of the future. I don't want to get off the track again. I wanna love and be loved and know how to love and not do anymore stupid things.

Somebody, assure me I'll be just fine please.
It just sucks to be insecure like a damned pussy boy