and i have absolutely no idea why! actually i do, its about her, of course. who else.

funny because having h2h with her last night, i do feel better now but i dont know why the evil negative feeling is still there.

i feel very burden to you eh, you know that. VERY BURDEN. im like so difficult to be with, right!

all these trust issues and self esteem issues. its time for me to learn and get used to.

i realised, I WONT HAVE THESE PROBLEMS WITH YOU AT ALL if you're not going to australia.

everything will be normal i swear, cause i have time on my side to adapt to these. YOU KNOW THAT? YOU KNOW THAT? YOU KNOW THAT? i dont want to make you feel that, "woah alex is so weird? so emo for what?"

but wait, its true laaa im emo, but for a fucking valid reason. AUSTRALIA, im scared you know thats why i worried and think too much!

heart weight just decreased by 1 ton. :D