i want to hate you for breaking my heart, not appreciating my feelings for you, not treating me better etc. i want to bar you from my life.

i cant, i really cant do it, BUT I HAVE TO ASAP. i must stop my feelings for you.

god, now i have to go through all the mind torturing experiences of going to places that reminds me of you and seeing things that reminds me of you. i have to go through all these until it has no effect on me or else i know i haven't get over you yet. it sucks because i dont want to. you force me to! i dont wanna stay all vulnerable to you, open to any future hurt that can be inflicted by you.

fuck the strepsil box you gave me with a little note on it. fuck the penguin clip you gave me, i dont need it anymore. fuck the sweater i gave to you, the only one of its kind.

you know what, you wanna be friends when im ready right?
when im ready to accept you as friend, i will ask you this simple question.
where is my sweater? if you answered i lost it/i threw it away, I TELL YOU AH, that is the end of everything. it may sound fucking childish, immature but i attach feelings to things and actions. it may not mean anything to you, but it means a hell lot to me.

ohh you'll probably read all these posts i have cos you know i have a blog, but... oh wait, since when you start paying attention to things about me. you selfish being. so mad at you right now in a non violent way, of course hahaha. alright, this will be the last post about you. in future, there might be posts of me struggling to get over you, but dont worry i will only get stronger after it :)