totally screwed my paper up, i swear this is exactly how i felt when i did my o's biology paper 2. sutdy study study, gonna force myself to study after this entry. everything is going wrong in my life right from the start of the year, ughhhh. i dont feel like studying anymore, i dont feel like doing anything at all, i just want to be free from all emotions and worries. i wish im omnipresent or invisible or a super genius or an ARTIFICIAL INTELLIGENCE (inserts cool smiley here)


im missing you and everything about you, those long bus rides we used to take and dozing off beside you. i still hate bus 65. those times when we're in ikea eating, your favourite mushroom soup and feeding you chicken wing shreds. those times when you waved bye to me from your block staircase then come down to send me to the bus stop, swear you're irresistably adorable lah. i miss talking to you about pork adventures. i even dreamt of getting back together with you and got caught by our parents for making out. damn, my dad had to wake me up from my dream to get ready for school, ugh! all i can do now, is wait and wait and wait. maybe dream of you cute pork once in a while. all i beg you to do. is to have a tweeny little bit of feelings for me? i swear i'll stop sharpening my nose and be a gooooood boy, promise promise promise! :8( im full of regret, filled to the brim. i can only constantly blame myself for everything that happened, if im willing to sacrifice my lifespan for things to get better, i'll never think twice. its real joy being with you, those bittersweet kind of joy that keeps me happy deep in my heart. wthelll, okay i dont know what am i saying. im being possessed by my regrets again.

you know what, i was thinking that maybe you'll read all these crap but on a second thought, i seriosuly doubt so. you dont even care about me anymore. i feel so useless. wait, i am useless, what am i talking about.