i've tried my best to persuade you already. since now im not supposed to contact you, its all up to you already. i dont feel good about this at all, you dont look like you want to salvage this.

you give me the feeling that you tell me you want to know how it feels without me, but trying to keep me away from you, so i can slowly forget you. i know im blabbering nonsense and being paranoid. but im to the point where my mind keeps on thinking about this matter until i cant live life properly.

its not that i dont trust you and everything, brendon keeps telling me to give up and all, being all pessimistic on me when i believe in you so much that im so scared.

however, i hope this is not how you really feel. i believe you that you will put this ordeal to an end whereby you finalise your feelings for me and settle this once and for all. i dont believe loving me for so long, a problem on commitment can destroy it completely.

please dont try to let time heal my wounds cause time doesnt heal it, time numbs the pain of the unattended wounds. in other words, you're leaving me to bleed to death.

my mind is still bent on waiting for you, im serious you cant change my mind, my decision is made and sealed. forgetting you is much harder thing to accomplish, trust me.
i'll wait for the day that you say you love me once again. it may be a stupid thing to do, but i dont care, i rather do stupid things than to regret it. i will hang on to every single hope that i can get from what you said when we are so in love.