i have been thinking ALOT ever since jan 30th, trying to learn from my mistakes. pork, if i have restricted you to do what you want to do in the past, if i have made you spend all your free time with me in the past, if i have expected you to be there 24/7 all the time in the past, if i have deprived you from your time with your friends, (I ADMIT I HAVE DONE ALL OF THEM)im really, sincerely, deeply, remorsefully sorry for my selfish actions. please forgive me :( This hard blow woke me up from my seriously erred perception. i've been the biggest jerk ever, doing things that are so insanely unreasonable and all.

i just want you back, i cant accept the fact that you're gone and that you can choose to like someone else or vice versa, because i still love you deeply right from my heart. that is why i didnt want to let you go, pestering you like some parasite(i even find myself stupidly irritating if i were you). give me a chance to show you i've learnt from my mistakes, let me prove to you that i learnt to be a better boyf who will understand your needs to have fun and chill with friends. believe me that i learnt to think for your interests and give you happiness, freedom you want.

i know that you long for a carefree life with no stress from school and life. being in a relationship with me in the past may have became a burden to you cause of the stupid things i've done that were so unthoughtful causing you an inbalanced life sandwiched between me and your friends. all i need is just one chance from you, to allow me to make you feel confident and comfortable with this relationship again. i will make this relationship a joy to have, not a burden of responsibility that restricts you.


think about it real hard, pork.
hopefully, there's an answer from you :/
(provided if you still read my blog)