To the pork of my life:

Some many things happened, good and bad. all equally dear to me because you were involved. pork, you're the first girl who ever hurt me this much, so much that "bleeding love" by leona lewis and akon's stupid na na na song which seems so make-believe to me is so true to the heart. right now, im in an immense agony, so painful that my body is unable to withstand when i think of the times we had, times we laughed together and those pretty moments. because, you're gone. no, your heart is gone. all those times we had can only fade along with time. i can never understand why you chose to do this, even though you clearly explained. its because i dont understand why my love for you cant salvage it. Commitment is nothing if you love someone, your heart will nautrally do things for your loved one with no regards. i pray to god, any god, or even the devil, i plead for you to come back to me, to love me like you used to. i really really dont know how to live without you. not physically-wise but living my life knowing that your love, care, affection are lost. the mere thought of you with another guy causes my blood to boil, my evil intentions to grow. pork, please pork, i will cherish you this time if you give me a chance now, i know i often make you feel like shit. i will change, i will . pork, i hope you read this and truely question yourself, your conscience and your heart. because i believe in you.

from: your dearest pork tan with undying love.