(i'll pretend) i dont know what's with me, but im sure it'll be here to stay for a long long time.
maybe its mid test stress and all.


with such intelligent and competitive classmates, who wouldnt be stressed out.
shouldnt have taken my friends for granted, especially joshua, henry, andre, and kala gang. should have realised im in the wrong a long long time ago. now that i have drifted away from yall, will yall ever see this sincere virtual apology from me? i doubt so. anyway, its virtual cause im too ashamed to face yall. its really a bad habit to start with since we became close.
its so bad that even bestf almost gave up on me. i WILL meet y'all whenever my workload allows me to. sompa.
To X: i dont know what's going on in your mind, but stop giving me false hopes. im too tired, not tired of you but life.
To S: i always thought you're the more mature one, guess im wrong. really detest your attitude sometimes, please learn to be more understanding. its not like i can control my life now, im still 17 hello. i know its partly my fault but im already feeling apologetic about it . thanks for tolerance or else, i dont know what will happen. everyone has their own situation, they are not like you. SO, put yourself in the shoes of others before you go ranting about it.

feeling rotten inside.