I have to learn to love myself for who I am, protect myself from people who will hurt me. And trust only myself.
I have opened so much of myself to you, and each time you don't seems to cherish it. This will be the last time. Maybe we are just not suitable for each other.
Im sorry, you have lost the trust I gave you.
A master asked his disciples:
‘Why do we shout in anger? Why do people shout at each other when they are upset?’
the disciples thought for a while, and one of them said
‘Because we lose our calm, we shout for that.’
‘But, why to shout when the other person is just next to you? ‘Isn’t it possible to speak to him or her with a soft voice? Why do you shout at a person when you’re angry?’
The disciples gave him some other answers but none satisfied the master.
Finally he explained:
‘When two people are angry at each other, their hearts distance a lot. To cover that distance they must shout to be able to hear each other. The angrier they are, the stronger they will have to shout to hear each other through that great distance.’
Then the master asked:
‘What happens when two people fall in love? They don’t shout at each other but talk softly, why? Because their hearts are very close. The distance between them is very small…’
And he concluded:
‘When they love each other even more, what happens?
‘They do not speak, only whisper and they get even closer to each other in their love.
‘Finally they even need not whisper, they only look at each other and that’s all. That is how close two people are when they love each other.’
There's nothing to hold on to anymore, even memories hurt so bad when I think about you.
I'm so broken, so numb of my surroundings. I'm not myself anymore.
And it's hard to love again
When the only way its been
When the only love you know, just walked away
If it's something that you want, darling you don't have to run
You dont have to go
Just stay with me
Baby stay with me
Would like to elaborate more on the current status, I care so much for her and likewise she does too. It's just that whatever good that can happen has already happened and it has come to a closure. you just wish things between us can be as good as it can be right now. And show concern for each other is the best way. Perhaps like I felt for my first love, I will always love pinxian for as long as I can.
Life right now is actually quite depressing but I can say I'm doing quite well, coping with the lemons life is giving me.
Army pls be good to me!